~Crimson-Fatalis

howso?
:listens:



[can't sleep.........
xP...]

Eh. I try to be exited for the holidays but this year i'm just not feelin' it. There's other meanings behind it, but that's the gyst of it. So, how about you?

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Like the malevolent hiss of a retracting turtle.

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[O.O] ..?
/)__)
-"--"-

awhh...
well, i won't pry any further then.
[unless i can?...xP]
[[yes....i am nosey....>.<'...heh...]]
[hmmm...i'll just have to give you another
big 'eppermint pole' thingy]
hah
xD

hmm, and i?
meh, this holiday
may be a little sour for me this year
aswell, but i'm just trying to make
the bestest of it^.^

Why is that? If I may ask..

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Like the malevolent hiss of a retracting turtle.

,___,
[O.O] ..?
/)__)
-"--"-

meh....
my mommy passed away this
october....
in a fashion not
quite likeable....[not like it ever
would have been...butstill]
i was close with her, very much so...
and so, it's damn difficult to go on
to days like these and hold it
together for my dad and brother....

that's why i like to make the best of
all that i can, with everyone i know^.^
you never know when you might lose
someone you care about, and you truely don't
know what you have, until it's gone.
crazy, is it not?
that's why i try to make the best of
whatever i can now=]]

Oh my. I'm so sorry. You're very brave...I can honestly say that I couldn't go on like you do if something like that happened to me...I'm sorry Jess, That's terrible..

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Like the malevolent hiss of a retracting turtle.

,___,
[O.O] ..?
/)__)
-"--"-

thankies
but it's ok in a way.....
i mean, after that happened,
i seriously thought about
going back to my old ways
and doing, well, some stupid crap that
i used to do,
but i figured....
she wouldn't want me to.....
she'd want me to continue with
my life, even if she's not here on earth
to see it....
she's in heaven^.^
that makes all the difference
in the world=]

i just miss her...
i'm selfish that way x}

hah, and that's why i give reallyyyy big
hugs to people now too^-^
haha,

You've gotta be one of the most optimistic, content people I have ever known.(compliment..err) I wish I could be the same, but I have neither the will, or the strength of heart to do so..The ability to maintain hope after something like that is a fantastic trait to have.

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Like the malevolent hiss of a retracting turtle.

,___,
[O.O] ..?
/)__)
-"--"-

hah, thankies^.^
it's taken me a a lot of persistence
and even more prayer to get myself to become
that way....
i was wayyyyy depressed for my entire
middle school and some hishschool years
until i become fed up with it....
what i did was, after something bad
would happen, i'd say something optimistic
[sound ridicuouls...yes..]
but eventually, i convinced myself enough
to believe it...
and soon realized it's worth the stress
[in that sense] to fight for it....
[the not-super-depression-ness]
hah xP

and i bet you have
a trait like that as well, you just
havent quite discovered or
uncovered it yet=]
open your mind to it,
because anything is possible
to the human mind...
=]